Harbone

outlaw,
Its sounds like you lived it to the fullest, good or bad. better than most 9-5 guys who have nothing to talk about except the manicured lawns. I can relate, 80's were some serious party times for me too. more drugs than I could ever imagine and a lot of my close friends at the time payed the price for our actions. some are dead, some are in prison and some wish they were dead now. I was fortunate to meet my beautiful wife in the late 80's and she pulled me away from all that mess. Be strong my friend, enjoy your family to the fullest and try and hop on that bike every once in awhile to feel the breeze in your face, thats one thing that always makes me feel better when I am down or just need a break from reality. I know that we have had our discussions on God before, I hope he helps you through the pain and lets you know you will have a place with him when the time comes. peace to you and yours.